We have all seen a woman in the store with her bad kids, right? Um, today, that was me. And, that is not cute. I will never talk about that woman again. First, we went to my old job to see everyone. My kids acted like they were on a playground on something, complete with screaming and laughing. Not cute. Later today, we went to the beauty supply store and Target. Again, they acted like little monkeys swinging on the cart and stuff. I threatened them and secretly pinched but nothing. So, when we got home, they got disciplined. We'll see what happens next time. I was so embarrassed.
Is it normal that I still cannot really process the fact that my cousin died? It still seems so unreal and if I really sit and think about it, I get so very sad. I guess time will heal this wound.
I'm ready for my husband to come home but I'm also nervous that we're going out of the country again soon. He talks as though he knows something but just doesn't want to say. I think I'll be okay with leaving again for a short time but I don't know if I'm ready to live in a very hard place. I gotta continue to pray about this one.
I need to call my daddy. I can't remember the last time I talked to him although I know it hasn't been more than two weeks.
I need to go to sleep.
Later.
Is it normal that I still cannot really process the fact that my cousin died? It still seems so unreal and if I really sit and think about it, I get so very sad. I guess time will heal this wound.
I'm ready for my husband to come home but I'm also nervous that we're going out of the country again soon. He talks as though he knows something but just doesn't want to say. I think I'll be okay with leaving again for a short time but I don't know if I'm ready to live in a very hard place. I gotta continue to pray about this one.
I need to call my daddy. I can't remember the last time I talked to him although I know it hasn't been more than two weeks.
I need to go to sleep.
Later.
Comments
Latanya
I cannot say that time will heal that wound. I still cry about the friend I lost 5 years ago. The one that died not to long after giving birth. I am not mad at God or anything like that, but I feel sad and most of the time cry when I think about it. I don't cry everytime I talk about her and in fact I get so happy when I start thinking about how wonderful it will feel to see her again when Jesus comes (assuming she died in Christ and I continue to live my life in God's will).
OUT OF THE COUNTRY AGAIN SO SOON!!! Look, we need to talk about this. :-) I know I don't have any say so in the matter, but I still want to talk about it.
Later,
Red
Girl, for a long time I could not wrap my mind around my youth director passing away. She died right after I turned 18. Even last year someone at church was talking about leading kids and how you influence them forever. That made me think about her. I had to go to excuse myself because I just kept crying.
I'm sorry you were "that mother in the store". Its funny now that many of my friends have kids I start thinking about those mothers very differently.....Unless they are encouraging the kids to act crazy. :)
Ayana
As far as the grief thing yeah it's normal grief to the same magnitude as the time of death is normal for 1 full year afterwards. I once read the quote that we're tied to the people we love not by one strong cord but by millions of tiny threads. Just as they were all created one by one they must be cut one by one. That process takes time and unfortunately hurts. Hang in there it will get better in time and I'm still praying for you.
Lonna