Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Day at the Park and Birth Control

I'm in a quandary now about birth control. I presently have two babies in diapers and have no desire to add #3 to the mix. But, I also am not ready to make the oh-so-final decision to have my tubes tied. So at my doctor's appointment this morning, the good ole doc wrote a prescription for the Nuva-Ring. He told me all the good stories his other patients have told him about how easy this is and how they've had no problems. I had more than enough problems with the birth control pill. And the thing is I didn't know about the problems until I got off the pill. So, I vowed to never pop another one in my life. My opinion about birth control in general is that it messes with the way God intended for the female body to function. I want to just trust that God will close my womb and I won't get pregnant again. On the other hand, I didn't totally expect to be pregnant just as my daughter was celebrating her first birthday and I really would not handle it well if it happened again so quickly. My husband wouldn't handle it well if it happened again at all. Back to the NuvaRing -- you have to insert this ring in your vagina and leave it there for 3 weeks. Take it out, have a period, and repeat the process with a new ring. Is it just me or does this sound a little crazy? Sticking a foreign object up in there...whatever!

After my appointment, I decided to take the little ones to Bear Creek Park. We had fun looking at the ostriches, donkeys, goats, and other animals. It was so much fun that Danae didn't even want to get on the slides or swing. No sweat off my back! Then the real fun started. We saw another mom and her son (about 2 years old maybe 3). They looked hispanic so she started yelling "HOLA! HOLA!". The little boy looked at her like she was crazy so of course she just yelled it again while walking all up in his personal space. As I pulled her deranged-looking self away his mom told him "Honey she's saying hello in Spanish". He then smiled and spoke to her and then walked over and they looked at the ostriches together. Of course I don't know if they were hispanic but they really did look like it and if they are I need him to know what Hola means. A little more time passed by and I was more than ready to go. As soon as I uttered the words "Let's go" my baby girl proceeded to scream like I was killing her. A little old white lady walked up to us and asked "Is everything okay?" I said "Yes, she just doesn't want to leave yet" and proceeded to walk to my car. Little old white lady followed us at a distance and watched me put this hysterically screaming child in the car. She then said "are you sure she's ok" and then ignored me and asked Danae if she was okay. Umm, keep walking woman because I'm hot and tired and hungry and don't feel like being bothered. That's what I wanted to say but I just said we're fine thanks and looked at her until she went on her way. What was she thinking? That I was abusing her or something? Did you see me lay a hand on her except to pick her up and strap her in the car seat? Did you see any bruises? Well, I guess abusers don't put bruises in noticeable places but still the lady needed to leave me alone.

Monday, October 23, 2006

Just Stuff

I watched Tyra's show one day last week. Normally, I don't really like her show but this one had stars from popular shows in the 80's/90's. Karyn Parsons was on (Hillary from The Fresh Prince of Belair) and she was talking about a new production company that she started called Sweet Blackberry. She is producing DVD's for kids about Black History. And, she's focusing on little known people so it won't just be Martin Luther King, Harriet Tubman, Sojourner Truth, etc. I thought this was worth sharing.

I also started working out. Lord knows pregnancy does not leave you looking very cute. My stomach is out of control and my thighs apparently got bigger too because I can't pull my jeans up over them. What a mess!

This weekend, I finally watched Akeelah and The Bee. This movie was so good and I'm mad I didn't see it sooner. The only reason I rented it at all was because I fell in love with KeKe Palmer on the Black Movie Awards. This is one to buy as far as I'm concerned.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Nightmares and Dreamscapes

Last night I had two dreams about people trying to kill me. What in the world does this mean?

Dream #1:
I went back a few decades for this one. I was in the house when Marvin Gaye's daddy was about to shoot him. Have no idea why I was there but I decided to try to be the hero and jumped in between the two of them. Dad was like "You need to move out the way. This don't have nothing to do with you." Did I take his advice? NOOOO. The next thing I know Dad pulled the trigger and I jumped in front of Marvin Gaye. The dream ended there so I don't know how good a shot dad was. Hopefully, we both dodged the bullet. Well, sadly we already know Marvin didn't.

Dream #2:
I'm hanging out with some friends. One friend had a few cousins here from out-of-town. Don't know where. One of them got mad about something I said so later she told her cousin (my friend) that she was going to kill me. My friend told me and I kinda blew it off. She said "this girl is really crazy." So, they kept trying to hide me and my kids until the cousin left time. Again, the dream ended before anything happened.

What's up with these crazy dreams? No, I didn't eat late nor did I eat anything crazy.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

-Ology Meme

I saw this on someone else's blog and thought it was something to do so why not? Maybe some of you will find out even more info about me you didn't know (in addition to the story on the breast cancer post).

* What is your salad dressing of choice? Classic Caesar
* What is your favorite fast food restaurant? Chick-fil-a
* What is your favorite sit down restaurant? Churrasco's or Maggiano's
* On average, what size tip do you leave at a restaurant? 15%
* What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of? Chicken
* Name three foods you detest above all others. Spinach, Potato Salad, Cole Slaw
* What is your favorite dish to order in a Chinese restaurant? Lettuce Wraps at P.F. Chang's
* What are your pizza topping(s) of choice? chicken, cheese, mushrooms
* What do you like to put on your toast? butter and strawberry preserves
* What is your favorite type of gum? don't have one

* Number of contacts in your cell phone? don't know
* Number of contacts in your e-mail address book? Who has the time to count that?
* What is your wallpaper on your computer? A pic of my daughter in her pool
* What is your screensaver on your computer? Happy Birthday greeting from my hubby a few years ago (we're too lazy to change it for some reason)
* Are there naked pictures saved on your computer? not that I know of
* How many land line phones do you have in your house? two
* How many televisions are in your house? two; one isn't even plugged up.
* What kitchen appliance do you use the least? food processor
* What is the format of the radio station you listen to the most? news (NPR) or Praise 92.1 (gospel)

* What do you consider to be your best physical attribute? I don't know...maybe my lips
* Are you right handed or left handed? Right
* Do you like your smile? yeah
* Have you ever had anything removed from your body? two children
* Would you like to? No thanks
* Do you prefer to read when you go to the bathroom? nope
* Which of your five senses do you think is keenest? definitely not seeing or hearing so maybe smell. I don't really know.
* When was the last time you had a cavity? couple of years ago
* What is the heaviest item you lift regularly? my 27 lb daughter
* Have you ever been knocked unconscious? Nope, although I did ask a nurse to handle that for me once.

* If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? Nope
* If you could change your first name, what would you change it to? When I was little, I wanted to be named Nicole
* How do you express your artistic side? I write and draw
* What color do you think you look best in? Burnt orange, at least I get a lot of compliments when I wear it.
* How long do you think you could last in a medium security prison? not very long
* Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake? a marble from the hungry hippos game when I was little
* If we weren't bound by society's conventions, do you have a relative you would make a pass at? nope
* How often do you go to church? every Sabbath I can
* Have you ever saved someone's life? mentally or physically?* Has someone ever saved yours? I don't know but would be flattered to know I did.

* Would you walk naked for a half mile down a public street for $100,000? probably not
* Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100? nope
* Would you have sex with a member of the same sex for $10,000? nope
* Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000? nope
* Would you never blog again for $50,000? Sure.. I'm fairly new anyway.
* Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000? nope
* Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000? I might try it
* Would you, without fear or punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000? not unless my or my children's life was in danger.
* Would you shave your head and get your entire body waxed for $5,000? Ok, it has to be more then that.
* Would you give up watching television for a year for $25,000? I think so.

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Monday, October 09, 2006

Breast Cancer Awareness Month

Well, this is breast cancer awareness month and I'm posting this blog to encourage everyone to please check yourselves out. Yes, I said everyone because from what I've read, men (although it's rare) can also get breast cancer.

In June of 1990 (I can't believe it's been that long), my mother was diagnosed with breast and ovarian cancer. Four short but painful years later, she died because of cancer. I will never forget that June. My aunt and I traveled to Houston, TX (of all places) to visit my cousin. I found later that this trip was arranged so I would be away while my mother had a biopsy done to find out if her tumor was malignant. Anyway, when we returned my mother sat me down to let me know she had cancer. I felt like the world ended right then. Unfortunately, I was no stranger to cancer. My grandparents and aunt died from it, another aunt had a mastectomy because of it, and another cousin was undergoing treatment at that time. To me, she just told me she was going to die. I felt like God was letting me down. How do you allow someone's mother to die before she's finished growing up? How will I adjust to life without her? My mother and I were like best friends. She was the one person I couldn't lie to because I didn't want her to be even more disappointed and she had the uncanny ability to find out the truth anyway.

On April 7, 1994 my mother died as a result of cancer. That was one of the most horrible days of my life. An older man from my church actually told me about her death over the phone while I was home alone. Mom was in the hospital, I had just gotten home from school and dad hadn't come home from work yet so we could make our daily trek to West Florida Hospital. This man called on the phone and said "you know your mama's dead". I was like "What?". He said again "your mama's dead". I just hung up the phone and sat in a total state of shock. My aunt and cousin came over and I had the unpleasant task of filling them in on the news. I was 16 years old at the time. I found out that this same old man went to my dad's job and told him about her death. This is an example that old age doesn't always equal wisdom. Why would you call a child and tell her about her mom's death over the phone while she's alone? Thank God I wasn't mentally unstable because who knows what could have happened! At first, I felt guilty because no family was with my mom when she died but later found out that 3 of her best girlfriends were with her at that time and she just closed her eyes and died. The previous night, before my dad and I left, she made a bigger than normal deal about saying goodbyes and we all told each other how much we loved the other and I can say that I did get the chance to say goodbye.

So I went to proms, graduated from high school, went to college, loved and lost, faced adversities, and much more without my mom being there. I can only trust that God was then and still is in control of EVERYTHING.

Didn't mean to post all of this but maybe I needed to. When my daughter was born 20 months ago, I was very sad about my mom not being there. I mean everyone's mom goes to the delivery room with then and comes to help them. My mom is asleep in Holy Cross Cemetary in Pensacola, FL. It's been 12 years now and I miss her terribly every day. It's easier but not necessarily better.

Get yourselves checked. Early detection can allow you to spend more time with your loves one and spare them some of the agony I felt...

Friday, October 06, 2006


It's kinda funny that I posted yesterday about beauty. On Oprah's show yesterday, she talked about aging and had beautiful women over 50 that hardly looked their age. One was Ms. Diahann Carroll. I have always considered her to be one of the most beautiful women around and was surprised to find out that she's 71. She looks so good. So, while I was sitting there all impressed by her good looks and all, she goes on to say that she has had plastic surgery and recommends it for others. Man, I thought that was just natural beauty. Silly me! But, I'm still hoping that when it comes to aging, my black half comes through for me because it really seems that black women generally age a lot better than some others.

For the pictures attached, the first is from the show yesterday, the second is from 1961, and the third is from the Dynasty days.

Thursday, October 05, 2006


So, I am so glad Monique was kicked off America's Next Top Model. Her attitude was horrible! I love the show but the contestants for this cycle are a little boring to me. I mean the "rock and roll" girl is kinda funny but overall they're just not doing it. And, I'm so tired of seeing J Alexander looking a hot mess. It trips me out that he talks so badly about the girls as if he looks good or even decent. I digress.

On another note, my daughter has me tripping. She is really rough and likes to do dangerous things and play with nasty bugs. But, she's also kinda girly. For instance, she loves to carry a purse and rock her sunglasses and toy cell phone (complete with the cute pink case). This morning, she decided to try to put on my lipgloss. When she couldn't open it, she decided to put vaseline on her lips instead and then proceeded to the mirror to check herself out. What's up with that? She's not even 2 yet!! This has me thinking about our future battles over makeup, clothes, and other beauty issues. How will I handle this? My hubby is going to be super-strict I'm sure so I'll probably be the one to allow some things. But, what do I allow? How do I teach her that true beauty emanates from within? How do I teach her that God made her a natural beauty and all the makeup and other stuff will hide what is already there? How do I decide what's okay and what's not? How do I handle the fact that she will have to deal with peer pressure about this and much more? I know, I know...she will learn more from watching me than listening to me.

Why am I stressing about this now? Who knows!!! I should be enjoying the fact that BOTH kids are down for a nap right now.