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Dangerous Times

I was watching Law and Order: SVU last night and the show was about a man who was drugging and then raping women. He apparently was charming enough to engage them in a conversation and the next thing you know the deed was done and they didn't even remember it.

Sometimes, shows like this make me so grateful. In my youth, I did a lot of stupid things. I drank heavily, went clubbing far too often, and just took unnecessary risks with my life. Stupid things! I can remember living in McGuinn dorm at FAMU and coming home extremely drunk. First of all, I drove myself home which was a danger to me and everyone else on the roads at that time. Then, they decided to have a middle of the night fire drill. My roommate had to drag me out onto the steps because I literally couldn't walk. Another night, I ended up spending the night at a f striend's house because I was so drunk that I passed out in her car. And, she said she wasn't about to drag my butt up the steps to my dorm room. I could barely recall what happened the night before. Thankfully, God saw something much better in me and protected me.

I sometimes think about the 'what ifs'. What if I had an accident while drunk? What if I killed someone? What if I went home with some strange guy? What if I had been raped or assaulted? What if? What if? What if?

I thank God that nothing bad ever happened (unless I truly don't remember). I thank God that I'm alive today and have learned the lessons from my past. I thank God that I can pass these lessons on to my own children with the hopes of them avoiding my mistakes.

Because of my mother's sickness and subsequent death, a lot of my teenage years were spent with me figuring things out for myself. I really could've used some guidance there. This doesn't mean I would've have done the same stupid things but I lived a pretty sheltered life and had no warnings for the dangers that come with freedom from parental supervision. I wasn't prepared to make wise decisions. But, I honestly wouldn't trade my experiences for anything because they have made me who I am today.

I have not drank a drop of liquor in probably 12 years or more. Trust me, I did enough before it was even legal to do so.

Comments

bklynq said…
Believe me God truly does love us because there are times I think what if too.
TERA said…
I can definitely related, so I know God is real!
Anonymous said…
Thank God for God and His holy angels that guard and protect us. He is so merciful on all of us.

Red

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